Monday, January 12, 2015

Day 12: Hey! It's self improvement Monday!

The Lab of Despair
The winter break never feels long enough. I'm always left wishing for just one more week to sleep in, read books of my choosing, binge a bit more on Netflix, and catch up with friends.  One more week of feeling like I can breathe. Instead here I now sit in the computer lab killing time before my first class begins.

The first day of the semester, always a Monday, is a mix of excitement and apprehension.  I enjoy school, I like filling my mind with new things but I have been at this long enough to know just how much work it actually is.  Last semester I was doing homework three to five hours a night.  Add to that holding down two part-time jobs, teaching dance, my artistic endeavors, sleeping, eating and other activities needed to stay alive, all somehow to be accomplished within the 24 hours allotted to us per day.  It's a perfect recipe for crazy.

Being prone to rumination I can quickly find myself going down the thought path of "how would things be different if I'd done this at 25" or "just how out of my head am I going to be come April?"  Also being the anxious sort, this is a path I'd be better off not going down. 

So here we go with one more item on the 2015 Spinster Jane Self Improvement List:  worry more about today than yesterday or tomorrow.

I know, it still has the word worry in it, but if I adhere to it I'll at least be getting worried over things that ARE actually happening right now instead of getting bummed out about what could have been or all full of anxiety over things that may not even happen.  I mean that's gotta be a step in the right direction right?

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