It hasn't all been quiet contemplation. I've still worked nearly every day and I've still had school and the associated homework including two midterms. I had several shows with my troupe and one solo performance. I've still had to keep up with bookings, my dance practice, writing and general life stuff. I've spent social time with friends. This has not been a vacation in the traditional sense though.
What it has been is an escape into a world where all of my basic needs have been adequately met. I can't help but think that if every human being could be assured of having these things every day the world would in general be a much happier place.
Just to be clear, when I am not housesitting I am not starving or living on the streets, however given my current financial circumstances I, like many of us, live paycheck to paycheck with little left for any sort of extras. The thermostat is kept at the minimum (multiple layers are a way of life), food is very, very basic (and I'm not sure the calories are always adequate), my lungs are often in flare-up (which has not been an issue at all here) and I worry nearly constantly about money (how will I make rent, pay for oil, food and other utilities) Because of all these things I often don't sleep well which probably contributes greatly to an anxiety prone, non-peaceful state of mind.
I know I am not the only person who lives this way these days and certainly not the only one amongst my friends. It is not a frequent topic of discussion as I don't think we want to dwell on our troubles, but it has been mentioned. Times are tight for so many; when I look at my own circumstances and the impact it has on my state of mind, then expand that to our community at large which includes so many who have even less, is it any wonder that there appears to be so much struggle in the world these days. Such a minor change in circumstance has made such a difference for me and I'm sure would do so for so many others.
I am grateful for that which I do have but having even a short time where a few of these basic necessities (warmth, food and breathing clearly) have not been a worry has been rather blissful. I've only a few days left before someone else takes over for the last couple weeks of the owners vacation…and the truth is I don't want to leave here yet.