A Monday

The weather here was terrible to day and I was exhausted, so I bailed on the class I was supposed to attend tonight.  I feel okay about it in terms of knowing the material well enough, but I feel kind of bad about it in terms of not having enough commitment to brave the icy sidewalks.  I thought this was something I wanted more than I'm feeling I do right now.

I am also super tired.  I crashed out for three hours when I arrived home and now I've taken two Valium so I can get myself back to sleep again.  I'm really trying to make sure I'm rested.  I feel completely wiped out lately. I realize I have a lot going on and I'm not the best at scheduling my time, and I'm going out and drinking FAR too much and too often.  I know I need to make want to make some changes in my life but my motivation is lacking.

Well, I suppose none of the things I want to change will happen if I don't get enough sleep to do them.

Oh, and did I mention I'm also constipated?  Haven't pooped in two days.  My body just isn't pleased with me.